Fic: What makes you happy? (Don/David) R
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n3loverTitle: What makes you happy?
Author:n3lover
Pairing: Don/David
Rating: R (Some strong language)
Summary: He thought he was doing what everyone else wanted but what would make him happy.
A/N: I have watched Numb3rs since it first premiered. I own nothing but the DVDs. I have been reading fics for a while but I just started writing my own. I appreciate any advice/suggestions. Now on to the story.
Author:
n3lover Pairing: Don/David
Rating: R (Some strong language)
Summary: He thought he was doing what everyone else wanted but what would make him happy.
A/N: I have watched Numb3rs since it first premiered. I own nothing but the DVDs. I have been reading fics for a while but I just started writing my own. I appreciate any advice/suggestions. Now on to the story.
What Makes You Happy?
“David, thanks for stopping bye. Close the door.”
“Ok, Don what’s up?”
“I figure we need to talk about your promotion and leaving LA.”
“What is there to talk about. I leave in 2 weeks.”
“Why are you doing this. Why are you leaving?”
“Don, you made it clear you wanted things to work out between you and Robin. You even said you wanted to marry her. What am I supposed to do. Wait around here and watch you get married and have a house full of kids with Robin. I just can’t do that.”
“I am sorry. You have made me so very happy. Happier than I am supposed to be. I told you from the beginning that I am supposed to get married and give Dad grandkids. That is what I have to do.”
“Don, that is BS and you know it. Your dad just wants you happy. He would understand if you told him about us. He was a hippie for crying out loud. All he has ever said is that he wants you to be happy and have someone to come home to that loves you. I tried to be that for you. I wanted to be that for you. I just realized that it won’t work. I want you happy Don, but I can’t be here and watch you with Robin. I can’t watch you with her. It hurts too much.”
“David, I had no idea.” Don walks up to me and cups my face in his hands. He looks me in the eye and says, “David Sinclair, you have my heart and soul. I want to be with you. I want to grow old with you. You know what my family means to me, you know that I have been trying to do what makes everyone happy. I am sorry that I am hurting you. I love you so much. Please help me figure out what to do.”
I just stood there looking at the man that I love who just admitted that he loves me too. Then all of a sudden, his lips where on mine. It felt amazing. The feel of his lips trying to show all his love to me in just one kiss. Then it all changed.
Someone barged into the office. We pulled apart and turned around. There stood Robin.
“What the hell is going on here?”
“Robin, I can explain.”
“You can explain. I sure hope so. I walk in to talk to you about the wedding and find you kissing David. This ought to be good.”
“Look Robin, before you and I got back together David and I were seeing each other and…”
“Don, wait. You can’t. I‘ll just go.”
“No, David. I have been lying to too many people for way too long. I am tired of this. Robin, David and I have been together for a while now. He makes me happy. I got back with you because we did work well together and it is what I thought I was supposed to do. Get married to a beautiful woman and have the 2.3 kids. The truth is that I have never been happier than when I am with David. He makes me feel complete. I never wanted to hurt you. I was prepared to marry you and live out this life that I was supposed to have but then David came to me with the transfer. That is when it hit me that I can’t let the love of my life move to DC. I am so sorry Robin. I never wanted you to get hurt.”
“Seriously Don. This is crazy. You have a reputation with half the woman in LA. How can you be with David. This is some kind of sick joke the two of you are trying to play on me.”
“No Robin, I am sorry but I can’t marry you. I can’t do this anymore. It is eating me alive. I have to do what makes me happy. I have been trying to do what my dad wants and what everyone else expects of me. Now it is time to make myself happy.”
He walks over and takes my hand. Our eyes are locked and he is talking to me like I am the only one there.
“David, I have been a complete jerk to you and there is no reason for you to forgive me but if there is any way that you can, then please do. Please stay. Please spend the rest of our lives together. Please be with me. I want to tell everyone that you are the one that makes me completely blissfully happy. That you are the one that I want to have a family with, just you.”
I am in complete shock. I just stand there looking at him and without thinking I lean in and start kissing him. It is chaste and my mind stops working. I don’t know how much time goes by but the next thing I notice is a coughing sound. That is when I realize Robin is still here. We turn around and she said, “This is not over Eppes. You will not do this to me.“ Then she storms out of the office.
“Don, what are we going to do? This is going to be all over the office very quickly. You know how fast rumors get around here.”
“I don’t know. I know I have to tell my dad and Charlie before they here about it from someone else. Then I could retire. Go to teaching. We could live in DC. What…What is that look for?”
“I don’t want you to leave your family. I don’t want to go to DC. I just couldn’t stand to watch you with Robin. We will have to talk to the Director but I am sure I can get on another team. We can figure that out but how are you going to tell your family?”
“I don’t know. You want to go with me?”
“Oh, Don, I will go with you anywhere but do you think me being there will help?”
“David, it will help me. It will help to have the man of my dreams with me when I tell my family.”
“You are so good at sucking up. I will be there just tell me when and where.”
“How about now. We could go talk to Dad and Charlie. Then maybe we could go out and celebrate.”
We started kissing and it felt so good. It had been so long since I felt this happy. It felt so amazing to have him in my arms again. Then, his cell phone started ringing.
“Eppes, yes sir I will be right up.” He hung up the phone. I gave him a questioning look.
“The director wants to see me know. He sounds mad.”
“I can wait for you. I have some paperwork I have to finish before my boss rides my ass.”
He turned around and gave me that million dollar smile and said, “I think I will ride your ass whether or not you finish your paperwork. I will be back. Wish me luck.”
I had finished my paperwork. Everyone had left and I was starting to freak out. I kept telling myself to stay calm. Don had been in with the director for over an hour. What could be taking so long? Then I heard the elevator. I turned around and saw Don getting off the elevator. He looked like it had gone bad.
“Hey Don, how did it go?”
“I think we should go home. Let’s get out of here and I will talk to you in the car. Not here.”
We shut our computers down and went to the parking garage. We got into Don’s SUV and we just sat there. I kept looking at him and waiting. I didn’t want to push because I knew if I pushed too hard then he would shut down. A few minutes later I found out why he was so upset.
“David, it looks like Robin went straight to the director. Told him what had happened. That she witnessed us kissing, twice. I had to tell him everything about us. I have until tomorrow morning to decide if you are transferring out or if I am resigning. He wants me to resign. He said that this will not be good for me either way. Carrying on with a subordinate, especially a male one, will not help my career. I am so sorry that I dragged you into this. I never wanted to hurt you.”
“Don, you have not hurt me. We will figure this out. I can transfer somewhere. I can figure something out. I love you. As long as I have you in my life then I will be able to handle anything.”
I squeezed his hand and felt him relax a little. Then he turned and smiled the smile that always made me weak.
“You ready to go to my Dad’s and tell him we are together.”
“Anytime. I am completely with you. Let’s go get this over with.”
The drive over was quiet. We both had a lot to think about but as far as I was concerned as long as we were together then we could handle anything. When we pulled up to the house. Don shut the SUV off and we just sat there.
“Don, I think we have to go inside to be able to talk to them.”
“I know. I was just thinking about you and me and how far we have come along. I just hope that we will survive this.”
“Don, as far as I am concerned, nothing that happens in there will change my love for you. You are stuck with me.”
“That is the best thing I have ever heard.” He leaned over and we kissed. Then we got out of the car and headed inside.
“Dad, Charlie, anyone here.”
“Hey Donnie, Charlie and I were about to watch the game. You want to join us.”
“Actually Dad, I was wanting to talk to you and Charlie.”
“Sure thing. Hi David. Why don’t you boys come in and have a seat. I will grab some beers.”
We all sat down. Don sat right next to me on the couch and all I wanted to do was take him in my arms but I knew we had to handle this the right way.
“Dad, Charlie, I don’t know how to say this.”
“Donnie, whatever it is just tell us. Your brother and I love you no matter what.”
“Yeah, Don, are you ok? You are starting to freak me out.”
“Ok, Ok, Robin and I are no longer getting married. We broke up earlier.”
“Oh, Donnie, I am so sorry. I thought things were going good with her.”
“Dad, it was ok. It just wasn’t what made me happy. I have found the person that makes me happy. The person that I want to grow old with. The person that I want to have a family with. The person that makes my world a happy place and that is a hard job.”
Don reached over and took my hand in his. We locked eyes and I knew that he was speaking from his heart. I just wanted to reach over and kiss him but I knew better.
“Dad, Charlie, David and I were seeing each other before Robin and I got back together. David is the one. He makes me so happy. I just hope that you can understand. I love the two of you but I also love David. I want you to be happy for me. I want you to understand. Please say something, anything.”
“Donnie, your mother and I always just wanted you to be happy. We never tried to force something or someone onto you. We just want you happy. We never wanted you unhappy. Yes, this choice will be harder for you but your happiness is the only thing that matters. If David makes you happy then I am happy for you.”
“Don, you are my brother and I love you. Nothing that you do will change that. If you want to be with David then I am fine with that, but David, just know that if you hurt my brother I will use my clearance and all my connections to ruin you. Don does not talk about his feelings and all this tonight is like over kill for him. That means that he must really love you. Do not hurt him. Do you understand.”
“Yes, Charlie. I promise you that I will never do anything to hurt Don. I love him so much. Once we get everything straightened out with work then I want to spend the rest of my life making your brother the happiest man in the world since he has done that for me.”
Don squeezed my hand and I knew we would be finishing this conversation later. I looked at the two men that we just came out to and realized that I was now a part of this amazing family. It made me so happy. Not only did I get a great lover and friend back but I inherited his family. I knew we could get through whatever the director threw at us.
We spent the evening with my new family and we could hold hands and not have to hide anything. For the first time, it really felt like we were a real couple. It was amazing. We left late and drove home.
“Don, are you ok. I know a lot happened today. I just want you to know that I am really happy. We can get through anything together.”
“David, I don’t know what to decide about the director. I don’t want to hurt you or your career. You are the most amazing man I know. I can’t hurt you. I would never be able to forgive myself if you were punished for us.”
“Don, Stop. We decided together to be together. This is not just you making all the decisions. I was in complete agreement the entire time. We will figure this out. We are in this together. Do you hear me. This is you and me. No one can compete with us when we are united. I love you so much.”
We hugged and I just relished the feel of being in his arms. It was absolutely amazing what could happen in a matter of hours and how our lives could change so drastically. Who knew what tomorrow would hold, but for tonight, I was in the arms of the man that I love and nothing could make me happier. Tomorrow could always wait.
“Ok, Don what’s up?”
“I figure we need to talk about your promotion and leaving LA.”
“What is there to talk about. I leave in 2 weeks.”
“Why are you doing this. Why are you leaving?”
“Don, you made it clear you wanted things to work out between you and Robin. You even said you wanted to marry her. What am I supposed to do. Wait around here and watch you get married and have a house full of kids with Robin. I just can’t do that.”
“I am sorry. You have made me so very happy. Happier than I am supposed to be. I told you from the beginning that I am supposed to get married and give Dad grandkids. That is what I have to do.”
“Don, that is BS and you know it. Your dad just wants you happy. He would understand if you told him about us. He was a hippie for crying out loud. All he has ever said is that he wants you to be happy and have someone to come home to that loves you. I tried to be that for you. I wanted to be that for you. I just realized that it won’t work. I want you happy Don, but I can’t be here and watch you with Robin. I can’t watch you with her. It hurts too much.”
“David, I had no idea.” Don walks up to me and cups my face in his hands. He looks me in the eye and says, “David Sinclair, you have my heart and soul. I want to be with you. I want to grow old with you. You know what my family means to me, you know that I have been trying to do what makes everyone happy. I am sorry that I am hurting you. I love you so much. Please help me figure out what to do.”
I just stood there looking at the man that I love who just admitted that he loves me too. Then all of a sudden, his lips where on mine. It felt amazing. The feel of his lips trying to show all his love to me in just one kiss. Then it all changed.
Someone barged into the office. We pulled apart and turned around. There stood Robin.
“What the hell is going on here?”
“Robin, I can explain.”
“You can explain. I sure hope so. I walk in to talk to you about the wedding and find you kissing David. This ought to be good.”
“Look Robin, before you and I got back together David and I were seeing each other and…”
“Don, wait. You can’t. I‘ll just go.”
“No, David. I have been lying to too many people for way too long. I am tired of this. Robin, David and I have been together for a while now. He makes me happy. I got back with you because we did work well together and it is what I thought I was supposed to do. Get married to a beautiful woman and have the 2.3 kids. The truth is that I have never been happier than when I am with David. He makes me feel complete. I never wanted to hurt you. I was prepared to marry you and live out this life that I was supposed to have but then David came to me with the transfer. That is when it hit me that I can’t let the love of my life move to DC. I am so sorry Robin. I never wanted you to get hurt.”
“Seriously Don. This is crazy. You have a reputation with half the woman in LA. How can you be with David. This is some kind of sick joke the two of you are trying to play on me.”
“No Robin, I am sorry but I can’t marry you. I can’t do this anymore. It is eating me alive. I have to do what makes me happy. I have been trying to do what my dad wants and what everyone else expects of me. Now it is time to make myself happy.”
He walks over and takes my hand. Our eyes are locked and he is talking to me like I am the only one there.
“David, I have been a complete jerk to you and there is no reason for you to forgive me but if there is any way that you can, then please do. Please stay. Please spend the rest of our lives together. Please be with me. I want to tell everyone that you are the one that makes me completely blissfully happy. That you are the one that I want to have a family with, just you.”
I am in complete shock. I just stand there looking at him and without thinking I lean in and start kissing him. It is chaste and my mind stops working. I don’t know how much time goes by but the next thing I notice is a coughing sound. That is when I realize Robin is still here. We turn around and she said, “This is not over Eppes. You will not do this to me.“ Then she storms out of the office.
“Don, what are we going to do? This is going to be all over the office very quickly. You know how fast rumors get around here.”
“I don’t know. I know I have to tell my dad and Charlie before they here about it from someone else. Then I could retire. Go to teaching. We could live in DC. What…What is that look for?”
“I don’t want you to leave your family. I don’t want to go to DC. I just couldn’t stand to watch you with Robin. We will have to talk to the Director but I am sure I can get on another team. We can figure that out but how are you going to tell your family?”
“I don’t know. You want to go with me?”
“Oh, Don, I will go with you anywhere but do you think me being there will help?”
“David, it will help me. It will help to have the man of my dreams with me when I tell my family.”
“You are so good at sucking up. I will be there just tell me when and where.”
“How about now. We could go talk to Dad and Charlie. Then maybe we could go out and celebrate.”
We started kissing and it felt so good. It had been so long since I felt this happy. It felt so amazing to have him in my arms again. Then, his cell phone started ringing.
“Eppes, yes sir I will be right up.” He hung up the phone. I gave him a questioning look.
“The director wants to see me know. He sounds mad.”
“I can wait for you. I have some paperwork I have to finish before my boss rides my ass.”
He turned around and gave me that million dollar smile and said, “I think I will ride your ass whether or not you finish your paperwork. I will be back. Wish me luck.”
I had finished my paperwork. Everyone had left and I was starting to freak out. I kept telling myself to stay calm. Don had been in with the director for over an hour. What could be taking so long? Then I heard the elevator. I turned around and saw Don getting off the elevator. He looked like it had gone bad.
“Hey Don, how did it go?”
“I think we should go home. Let’s get out of here and I will talk to you in the car. Not here.”
We shut our computers down and went to the parking garage. We got into Don’s SUV and we just sat there. I kept looking at him and waiting. I didn’t want to push because I knew if I pushed too hard then he would shut down. A few minutes later I found out why he was so upset.
“David, it looks like Robin went straight to the director. Told him what had happened. That she witnessed us kissing, twice. I had to tell him everything about us. I have until tomorrow morning to decide if you are transferring out or if I am resigning. He wants me to resign. He said that this will not be good for me either way. Carrying on with a subordinate, especially a male one, will not help my career. I am so sorry that I dragged you into this. I never wanted to hurt you.”
“Don, you have not hurt me. We will figure this out. I can transfer somewhere. I can figure something out. I love you. As long as I have you in my life then I will be able to handle anything.”
I squeezed his hand and felt him relax a little. Then he turned and smiled the smile that always made me weak.
“You ready to go to my Dad’s and tell him we are together.”
“Anytime. I am completely with you. Let’s go get this over with.”
The drive over was quiet. We both had a lot to think about but as far as I was concerned as long as we were together then we could handle anything. When we pulled up to the house. Don shut the SUV off and we just sat there.
“Don, I think we have to go inside to be able to talk to them.”
“I know. I was just thinking about you and me and how far we have come along. I just hope that we will survive this.”
“Don, as far as I am concerned, nothing that happens in there will change my love for you. You are stuck with me.”
“That is the best thing I have ever heard.” He leaned over and we kissed. Then we got out of the car and headed inside.
“Dad, Charlie, anyone here.”
“Hey Donnie, Charlie and I were about to watch the game. You want to join us.”
“Actually Dad, I was wanting to talk to you and Charlie.”
“Sure thing. Hi David. Why don’t you boys come in and have a seat. I will grab some beers.”
We all sat down. Don sat right next to me on the couch and all I wanted to do was take him in my arms but I knew we had to handle this the right way.
“Dad, Charlie, I don’t know how to say this.”
“Donnie, whatever it is just tell us. Your brother and I love you no matter what.”
“Yeah, Don, are you ok? You are starting to freak me out.”
“Ok, Ok, Robin and I are no longer getting married. We broke up earlier.”
“Oh, Donnie, I am so sorry. I thought things were going good with her.”
“Dad, it was ok. It just wasn’t what made me happy. I have found the person that makes me happy. The person that I want to grow old with. The person that I want to have a family with. The person that makes my world a happy place and that is a hard job.”
Don reached over and took my hand in his. We locked eyes and I knew that he was speaking from his heart. I just wanted to reach over and kiss him but I knew better.
“Dad, Charlie, David and I were seeing each other before Robin and I got back together. David is the one. He makes me so happy. I just hope that you can understand. I love the two of you but I also love David. I want you to be happy for me. I want you to understand. Please say something, anything.”
“Donnie, your mother and I always just wanted you to be happy. We never tried to force something or someone onto you. We just want you happy. We never wanted you unhappy. Yes, this choice will be harder for you but your happiness is the only thing that matters. If David makes you happy then I am happy for you.”
“Don, you are my brother and I love you. Nothing that you do will change that. If you want to be with David then I am fine with that, but David, just know that if you hurt my brother I will use my clearance and all my connections to ruin you. Don does not talk about his feelings and all this tonight is like over kill for him. That means that he must really love you. Do not hurt him. Do you understand.”
“Yes, Charlie. I promise you that I will never do anything to hurt Don. I love him so much. Once we get everything straightened out with work then I want to spend the rest of my life making your brother the happiest man in the world since he has done that for me.”
Don squeezed my hand and I knew we would be finishing this conversation later. I looked at the two men that we just came out to and realized that I was now a part of this amazing family. It made me so happy. Not only did I get a great lover and friend back but I inherited his family. I knew we could get through whatever the director threw at us.
We spent the evening with my new family and we could hold hands and not have to hide anything. For the first time, it really felt like we were a real couple. It was amazing. We left late and drove home.
“Don, are you ok. I know a lot happened today. I just want you to know that I am really happy. We can get through anything together.”
“David, I don’t know what to decide about the director. I don’t want to hurt you or your career. You are the most amazing man I know. I can’t hurt you. I would never be able to forgive myself if you were punished for us.”
“Don, Stop. We decided together to be together. This is not just you making all the decisions. I was in complete agreement the entire time. We will figure this out. We are in this together. Do you hear me. This is you and me. No one can compete with us when we are united. I love you so much.”
We hugged and I just relished the feel of being in his arms. It was absolutely amazing what could happen in a matter of hours and how our lives could change so drastically. Who knew what tomorrow would hold, but for tonight, I was in the arms of the man that I love and nothing could make me happier. Tomorrow could always wait.
